Since coming back from holidays, I’ve been busy looking for work and applying for jobs. I’m young and have the rest of my life to commit myself to the daily grind but I can’t help but feel this sense of urgency. I need to find a job ASAP or it’s going to be the end of the world. I have something casual to tide me over so I’m not sure where all this is coming from. Maybe it has to do with my degree. Maybe I feel that if I don’t find a job it will expire and the purpose of the last three years of my life will evaporate into nothing. I wish I could be one of those people who are happy to just go with the flow and do ‘whatever’. But alas, I need ‘direction’ in my life because I’m just not one of those people who can enjoy doing ‘nothing’ or finding things to do while I’m doing ‘nothing’. The things I enjoy in life tend to be things I look forward to, not things I just pluck out of the air to do then and there. I. Think. I. Need. To. Re-wire. My. Brain. Or get someone to hire me.